I´m in Uruguay now on a visa run, be back in Argentina for at least the next month (my sister´s coming for a visit, yay, and with the new instrument I just bought, a chromatic bandoneon!!). Having a hard time settling in here, wanting to connect more but not succeeding for various reasons (language barrier, my normal withdrawal in challenging situations, difficult to enter communities, etc.). Home sick and not ready for more travel to Brazil (w new language/community barriers) as I had originally though I might be for the winter here.
Argentina´s definitely got what I´m looking for in dance, community, culture, learning, and price (as good as it gets for this kind of culture). I´m: in a great tai chi/clown school; learning some acrobatics, Spanish, and Tango; tried cellular reprogramming (from a vibrant guy that supposedly hasn´t eaten in the last two years) in the new age 5th dimension capital of San Marcos in Cordova, but was lost/bord; went to contact improv/rainbow gatherings on the beach/in the mountains/in the city and shared my dance/drum/didgeridoo/laughter. Having great inspirations about the sacred/community/movement/chant/laugh/cuddle/touch/feel/trance/soften/silence/stillness/hug practice I want to create/share. All great stuff, but I may give up on it this time as it´s just not gelling and I´m not feeling safe.
Not sure how I´ll get back to the states, if I decide to, as I´m a long way from home without a ticket; a new one´s expensive (but will have to get home eventually). One though is if I´m spending 1000 on a ticket to US might as well go for an other round the world ticket if I can find one under 2000 that will get me back to the states for recuperation time first (and not really ready for more right now, want to get my hands on something solid right now, ie I want to practice a bunch of body work as I need to explore/share this gift/talent I have). Festival season in the states is also calling...
Seems like I´m going in all directions at once, but that´s nothing new. Seems like I´m thrashing around, but that´s not necessarily so bad (or new either), at least it´s lively (if a bit expensive). Still having crazy/great/tough adventures, not a boring year. Certainly still growing (spanish, tango, socially(?), clown HA!, massage), but clear direction I have not.
The next world rainbow gathering is in Baja California November 2008. I guess they decided to try to get it right this time after the *flop* (or maybe !boink!) of the China gathering, and the (my opinion) of the ´Galactic´ Mexico gathering. Sounds interesting, definitely not going to get a in Baja as there´s not much water there, it´s really desert/ocean beautiful, but might get a ((woosh)) of getting blown away by the wind (memories of a Baja sea kayaking journey w/dad after college and a HUGE wind storm, glad we made it to shore before the wind hit).
I´m giving myself the next couple of weeks in Rosario (lovely city, and my home in Argentina) to feel out my options and try find a direction (other than down, like a drowning swimmer... though maybe I should just let the water take me, it might not be that bad... and that´s the advice I got at the "drawing down the moon" ceremony at the pagan Dragonfest last year from a woman channeling the spirit of grandmother spider... spider spirits might just have some wisdom... "stop trying so hard and be myself" she said)
I hope your all well and enjoying spring
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