DRAFT
--Intro--
Blessings Family and Friends,
I am hoping you are healthy and warm, your hearts are filled with love and joy, and you are inspired. More than usual, at this time of year, I am healthy and warm here in paradise. My heart is more and more open, but still lonely. I am very inspired in my own practices, more than ever before, and somewhat challenged to share my inspiration in this foreign land. No longer a hippy, I am now a skin head, HA!, but more on that later.
--Summary--
I will summarize my latest adventures here so you don't have to read it all to get the general idea (I hope last months novel wasn't to much):
I went to the international rainbow gathering on a beach in the jungles of southern Thailand for a month. This gathering had many gems for me, much richer than my other rainbow experiences. I was reasonably successful at sharing and creating joy and integrating into the experience. My daily practices stayed strong, I learned much and have much to explore. I left a bit frustrated that I continued to be stuck in some of the same ways as always, but on the whole appreciative of the opportunities I had at the gathering to explore and learn.
I then went to a healing resort, "The Sanctuary" (aptly named), on the island Koh Phangan and immediately decided that I needed to stay in Thailand an extra month. True paradise. A relaxed energy, interesting community, many workshops, and incredible beauty. I stayed there for 10 days, then went to a 10 day Vipassina meditation retreat at a Buddhist jungle monastery. No talking and much painfull sitting; it was good, hard, and not fun work. Ever since I've been speaking more and with fewer filters than ever. Given my past inability to express, this is a great change for me. Soon I am really off to India.
-The Approach-
On my way south from Chiang Mai I stopped in Bangkok for a day to organize my India visa. I had some free time during the day before the train south and decided to spend that time at a big park in the center of the city, Lampini Park, to do my practices. While there a very kind Thai guy approached me, a former monk, who was stranded in Bangkok after someone stole all his belongings. He offered to give me a massage in exchange for enough money to get him home (500baht~$14), which I accepted. I figured that I've lost much more than that being cheated by people I don't like, and it was nice to be able to help someone that I liked in a major way so easily. Once again a good interesting experience in Bangkok, I wonder if I should change my aversion to it?
--Rainbow--
From Bangkok I then continued south by sleeper train toward the Andaman (west) cost of Thailand to the International Rainbow gathering.
-In the Abstract-
The Rainbow gatherings started in Nederland, Colorado, 30(?) years ago, just after Woodstock when twenty or thirty thousand hippies came to live together in the wilderness for a week around July 4th partially as an alternative to the normal nationalistic 'Independence Day' celebrations. During this time they managed to create something new together, an experiment in temporary intentional community, that has grown, continues through today, and which has maintained it's essential character, unlike many of the experiments of that time.
This yearly national gathering has spawned many regional gatherings, first around the US and then, with the last 15 years or so, internationally. These international regional gatherings started in Europe and are now all over the world. Since 2000 there has been a 'World' Rainbow gathering, each year somewhere different anywhere in the world. The first one was in Australia, and it has since been to Brazil and Costa Rica, Turkey and Africa (some where), and this year in Thailand.
Some characteristics of Rainbow gatherings are that:
- They are separate from of normal life. This gives the participants the opportunity to do things differently, to make up their own rules, to build something new.
- They are in the wilderness. This gives the people who come to the gatherings, the 'rainbows', a direct experience of their environment, a reality check. They find out what it's like to live with only the most basic trappings of civilization. The only trappings of civilization that are available are those things that participants are willing to carry in on their backs (or some other simple device) or create at the gathering with locally available material (bamboo, wood, grass, mud). For me it was comforting to have a direct experience of how little civilization and happiness are linked.
- Decisions are made through concensus and speaking circles. Whenever some community effecting event happens or decision needs to be made Rainbows come together in a circle and talk, one at a time passing the talking stick, about the issue until everyone can agree on what to do. This is a slow process, those with ADD need not apply, but with patience and time it does work.
- Communication in the gathering happens through: word of mouth; announcements during meals; yelled messages passed from group to group ("food circle", "food circle now!", "six up!" ie. police); and the occasional bulletin board (ie. yoga camp workshop schedule). These forms of communication have their limitations, but, once again, it's good to see what life can be like without the extra layers modern society has added, and that it can be good.
- They are organized by focalizers, people who volunteer to take on a role and it's responsibilities. The most important are roles that help provide the participants in the festival with the basics of civilization, things like shit pit focalizer, kitchen supervisor, food orderer, first aid tent focalizer. Beyond the basics, if anyone wants to create some new offering that will be a benefit to the community (clear a new workshop space, create a new auxiliary kitchen, lead a workshop, organize an event, etc.) they are encouraged to envision it, recruit the help they need to pull it together, and make it happen.
- They are run by the participants. The focalizers recruit volunteers who actually do the work of running the gathering (digging the shit pits, cooking/cleaning, etc.). Everyone is expected/encouraged to participate in some and hopfully many ways. This creates a fairly classless society as no one is above doing the dirty work (digging a shit pit). This also helps create a sense of ownership and belonging, rainbows are participants, not just an audience.
- They are financed through donation. After the common meals a hat, the 'magic hat', is passed around (accompanied by music and dance), in which donations are accepted. These donations are then used to: purchase the food for the common meals, buy kitchen supplies (pots, pans, etc.), purchase tools (shovels, saws, etc.), and support various projects that will benefit the community (ie. shade cloth for the main circle space, supplies for the bakery). People of any economic class can participate.
- Meals are cooked in a common kitchen, given freely to everyone who comes, and eaten together. Food is the main daily unifying event in the gathering, just as in normal life.
- They are non-alcoholic. The rainbows have decided that alcohol, rather than marijuana, is the main common drug that should be ostracize. This makes reasonable sense to me as a heavy alcohol user is much more dangerous to others than a heavy marijuana user. However, I'd now most prefer that use of all of the mind altering substances be limited (except for use in spiritual growth). I value more and more people who are present and involved with their lives, and I feel that some of the rainbow spirit is often lost behind the haze of smoke.
- Participants are expected to leave no trace and pack out what they pack in. There is a clean up crew that often stays for months afterword restoring the site. Often sites where gatherings are held are healthier after the gathering than the were before, as lots of the dead wood has been removed (used for fire wood), and fertilizer and mulch have been spread (offset by all the foot paths that were created).
- They are self policing. Disputes and problem people (except in extreme cases) are dealt with internally. At the gatherings, at least, we see how little the 'authorities' are actually needed. We also see the true character of the countries where the gatherings are held. In "Free" USA thousands were arrested this year; in Thailand, under martial law, the authorities complained a bit about nudity and drugs but were generally supportive.
- No money (other than for the magic hat) is used during the event. This keeps the commercial interests out of the gathering. Also, interactions in which we normally use money (ie. I did something for someone 5 years ago and now I want you to do this for me) become more immediate and rich (ie. I'll do this for you if you to that for me; or even better "What can I give you?"). Through this mechanism it can becomes apparent how we often let money separate us from each other.
- The general location for next year's gathering is chosen during a 'Vision Council' near the end of each gathering. This vision council is a speaking circle that has the goal of discussing what the vision of the rainbow gathering is and eventually deciding where/when it will be next held.
-My Experience of the 2006/7 Thailand World Rainbow Gathering-
-The Approach-
I headed south with my only directions being a somewhat confusing printout of an email describing how to get to the gathering. I trusted that as I got closer the path would become clearer. This is exactly what happened.
As soon as I got off the train I met others heading in the same direction. All was in perfect order as the bus driver knew where to drop us off without us having to try and understand and explain. As soon as we started walking toward the beach a pickup truck picked us up and drove us to the beach. We carried our stuff down the beach a little ways, rested at the first shade, and an other truck stopped and took us to the welcome center just north of the rainbow beach. We seemed to be 'in the flow' a good place to be.
The tide was high when we got to the welcome center. Our options at this point were to: litterally enter 'the flow'; struggle over the rocks and through the jungle; or wait until the tide lowered. We waited. So here I learned that being in the flow sometimes means not getting into the flow. Is that chapter 9 line 4 of the Tao Te Jing? I forget. Anyways, ancient Chinese secret.
Friend Sean's advice (always the subversive) for packing for this trip was "don't carry more than you can take with you 500 yards at a dead run" (what would I be running from?). While this was a great idea, it was not my method of travel. My philosophy was more "carry so much every move is torture, so if they catch you you'll be relieved"... or more accurately I would say my philosophy was "carry the stuff now that you will need for the entire 9 month trip", as if there would be no resources where I went. Sufficient to say I was happy that there was so much support for my arrival with ease to the gathering.
Once the tide was low enough we then, finally, walked the last 100 yards to rainbow beach. This was a beautiful arc of white sand, filled with rainbows lounging or swimming or playing, edged by real primordial jungle. Half visible amidst the growth you could see primitive oddly shaped structures made of bamboo, tarp, mosquito net, banana leaf, and nylon.
We then head down the beach and we then come upon the largest structure on the beach a tree house with the word "Tamar" written in large letters on the balcony. I learned later that the owner of the land, a Thai named Tony, had built this structure in honor of one of the rainbow ladies. She was surprised, and not receptive. She then got to spend the rest of the gathering with this little awkward story following her.
-Shelter-
Over the next few days I started to settle in. Always context sensitive, I first had to find/create a space that could help me feel comfortable in this new environment. After some scouting I decide to make camp right next to the big tree house. Just as in Durango, I wanted to be right in the center of the action.
Before I came I had had much time to imagine the structure that I would create for myself at the gathering. The materials I had brought from home were: a backpacker hammock; hammock mosquito netting; a parabolic tarp; and some rope. I also had a couple of plastic mats that I had gotten in Thailand. After looking at the options for how to string up my hammock I decided that I wanted to create a bamboo tipee for one end of my hammock.
I had managed to come early enough in the gathering (on the second official day) that there was still excess bamboo available near by that I could collect for personal use. So, I asked around and found someone who knew what bamboo to harvest (the older more structural bamboo has lost it's leaves), borrowed a community saw, and wandered into the jungle to harvest three polls.
Bamboo is an amazing building material. It is very light, strong, and easy to work with. It grows quickly, is inexpensive, and has many uses. At the gathering I saw it used as flooring, spoon and bowl, a didgeridoo, and joists. In Chian Mai they use it as scaffolding for buildings (just one pole... not a platform). Larry and I had talked about using bamboo as rebar/joists in the hybrid adobe flooring system we were developing for community natural housing.
I had never worked with bamboo directly before, so it was interesting to find out for myself directly how easy and useful bamboo was. In the space of a half an hour, with just a marginal saw, I was able to harvest, cut up, and drag back to the beach 3 30 foot long polls. This was a lot of useful material to get in a very short amount of time, with only my labor, no help needed. I then strapped the ends of the polls together, erected the tepee, and attached my hammock and tarp to it. In just a couple of hours I had created the structure I wanted.
This structure worked as one attachment for the hammock for the rest of the gathering, but only just barely. It turned out that the tripod geometry of the tipi and the diagonal pull of the hammock toward my other attachment (a tree) and the ground were delicately balanced. To much weight would cause the legs of the tipi to start to creeping in, on it's way to collapse, no matter what I did to adjust the relationships. The only real way to fix it would, I think, have been to use 1/2 rather than 1/3, of the bamboo polls.
I do admit that the small tent that I left at home would have been nice for stuff storage, organization, and protection. The light sleeping bag that I brought, but sent home as to bulky, would have been nice as well. I was surprised to find that winter nights, even in the tropics, can get cold, particularly hanging in a hammock. But I was able to buy or borrow what I needed, and just bundled up with every layer I could find on the cold nights.
Other than that my shelter plans worked great. With the comfort of a hammock for sleeping and lounging, shade and rain protection from the elegant parabolic tarp, and ground cover from the mats all together weighing just a few pounds I had a good solution for my physical comfort needs for the coming social adventure.
-The Neighborhood-
The place I set up camp was right next to the combined Israeli and Iranian camp. In rainbow terminology they were each a 'family'. These two families had met for the first time at last year's international gathering in Turkey. One of the Iranians had discovered it over the internet and had spread the word to other Iranians through the underground music circut. This group had come to the gathering, met the Israeli Rainbow camp, and the two families had grown close.
This was real world peace making made possible by rainbow, people from communities separated from each other by politics coming to live together in harmony. Evidence that the spirit of the American Hippy left movement is still alive and effecting peoples lives in new ways, despite all the years, challenges, and changes.
Also evidence of the ability of the internet to free up information and give people the power to connect directly with each other, bypassing the interests and geopolitics of those with power. Iran's bid strengthen itself, to become a regional power, and to loosen Israel and the US's imperialist influence on the middle east is certainly understandable. The radicalization of Iran was also understandable, being mostly a reaction to the US's actions through the CIA provoked installation and support of the Shaw of Iran. This radicalization is probably even necessary to help Iran protect and promote the interests of it's people in defiance of the world's most powerful country. And, thanks in part to the US's poor moves in Iraq, this appears to be working for Iran. But, as always with power politics, it's the people in the middle who's lives are effected by these events who loose.
It was really sad, then, to hear how controlling and invasive the Iranian government had been to the lives of my new friends at Rainbow. The underground music scene was the only way that many of them could find to socialize (that or leave the country), and they had been arrested, fined, and threatened prison time for doing this natural human thing. My loneliness had mostly been self or environmentally created, quite another thing for that to have been externally imposed.
--Connecting--
The biggest unmet need of my life has been my need for human connection, for love. The challenge has been that I have not been ready or able to approach trying to fill this need directly, and, in fact, I have often tried to pretend that it did not exist. Instead my strategy has been to try to be happy in my own separate world with activities and interests that have nothing to do with me filling this most basic unmet need. Over the years I have become quite skilled with this strategy, to the point where I could almost convince myself that I am content in my own little world.
***
Thus I came to Rainbow, with some unmet needs that I was hoping to fill by either diving into my new practices and move beyond my need for connection, or sharing the many talents that I have developed hoping the right lady would appear and somehow get past my defenses. One approach trying move beyond my need for connection, the other trying to fill that need (but indirectly).
--Daily Practice--
In trying to develop daily practices the first question I needed to answer was, "why am I doing this?". It didn't take long for me to find this answer, I was hoping for many benefits. I was hoping: that a daily practice would bring me some greater emotional stability and mind focus; that I would become stronger, more flexible, more intentional, and more present with my life; that I would gain some greater skill and momentum in the activities that were part of this practice; and that I might find real happiness in the process. Quite a tall order, but a daily practice (my holy grail?) is one of the few things that I believed might be able to deliver many of these benefits.
The second question I needed to answer was "what am I doing?". Something to do with movement and music, of course. These activities had been strong influences in my life for a long time and many people have achieved greater happiness, and even enlightenment, in this way.
On the movement side I wanted to stretch and strengthen, soften and smooth. I had my new Tai Chi form to explore, poi spinning to develop, and, as always, more dancing to do. On the music side I had brought two instruments, the didgeflute and Hadjara, both weird modern fusion instruments, that I wanted to explore.
Most mornings, then, I would get up around 8:00 am and wander to a flat place on the beach near the water. I would go to that certain place where the sand was still firm, but not wet, easy to find in a lowering tide, hard to find in a rising tide. This is the place where it is easiest to move, where you do not sink into the sand, and where you don't get wet. Here I would settle in for a couple of hours of movement exploration.
--Movement--
-Chiang Mai Tai Chi School Experience-
My starting place was the routine that I had followed at the Tai Chi school. I immediately had to make it my own and decide what I wanted to keep, drop, and develop. This is because, far from being a 'guru' with all the answers, the teacher of the Tai Chi school was a marginally functional, former mental patient, who's teachings were barely appropriate even for beginner students and were not 'the real' Tai Chi I had had glimpses of at home, despite my isolation.
As I understand it he had been a camera man in California and had a mental break down. He had been hospitalized, got out, and started doing volunteer work for some hill tribes of Thailand. Eventually he emerged from the jungle to find that someone had stolen his credit card number and that he was moneyless and creditless. This is when he started teaching Tai Chi, which became this school.
He was a bit like a 50's salesman, for he was repeating an act he had obviously done a many times before, telling the same stories to yet an other batch of students. In other ways he was the aspiring guru for, though he was the first to admit that he was not a guru (as he would say), he obviously wanted to be one.
He would sit on his platform talking in sweeping simplistic generalities about life, warning us of dangers that no other guru would admit to, and describing the ancient Chinese secrets he had discovered (that might have been revelations 50 years ago). He also said that he was "open to questions" but was actually quite defensive and uninformative when they did come up. I found it quite informative when he was unable to answer a simple question that I eventually asked him to which I knew the answer.
At one point we were all doing the form and I got a bit distracted, because I realized that I had a question. I stayed with the movements, but my eyes wandered. He had earlier told me directly to "keep your eyes on the horizon". When he saw me not following his earlier advice he dismissed the class and then confronted me saying 'you should really follow my advice'. I ignored the confrontation and just asked my questions.
I was interesting that he felt the need to confront me. I wasn't trying to challenge him, I was just trying to get as much as I could from the experience. It was more important to me that I understand what I was doing than to do it in a way that looked right. His defensiveness was, a giveaway, it pointed to a weakness. He was, in my view, in an awkward position, teaching a subject he was not that strong in and coming from a place of disintegration, from a place where things had fallen apart.
I was trying to find the boundaries of what he knew, once I knew them I was comfortable. I didn't need a guru or high level teacher at this point, nice as that would have been. I actually got most of what I wanted from the experience, for this was just an excuse for me to finally really spend time with myself trying to answer the question "What do I want?"
-Yoga, Meditation-
I decided that some of what I wanted were the life changes that I thought might come from a daily practice. The resources I started with were some warm up excersizes and stretches, a little yoga, some chi gung, the Tai Chi form I had just learned, and some sitting and walking meditations.
My relationship with yoga, and the sitting and walking meditations were ambiguous. I had found them to be powerful practices, certainly, but they did not excite me. The exploration of Tai Chi, on the other hand, was and exciting prospect. I was wondering, even, of it might become my 'main focus'. The problem was that I really did not know what it was.
-Tai Chi Teaching Methodology-
Tai Chi is normally practiced and taught in a traditional way, just like Thai massage, through learning the form. The form is just a precise series of movements, in dance we would say a choreography. You learn to mime the master, practice this series of movements in a way that looks like the master practices it. Then by repeating the form many times you learn to embody the principles of Tai Chi.
However, I had encountered, and heard about, many people who had spent lots of time following this method, thinking they were doing Tai Chi, who were then to find, years, or even decades later, that they weren't actually doing Tai Chi and were missing many of its benefits. They were to find that the practice that they might have been doing for a decade had really only been worth a few months of real practice (that's sure to be an interesting day!). I was hopping to not make this mistake, but, as there is a lot of mystery and confusion surrounding Tai Chi, there were no assurances that I would.
-Goal-
Thus there was a sign "Abandon hope all ye who enter here" that I had to pass before I started. This was not a problem for me because over the last ten years I had been a consistent student of movement, not just Tai Chi. My goal was to find ways of moving that were integral, fluid, and effortlessly strong, not to follow any particular form or style. Similar to my approach to spirituality I knew that whatever I would develop would be my own. If it fit under the heading "Tai Chi" or "Chen style" great, if not, fine as well. I knew that what I would develop would be interesting to me, if nothing else, and that was what was most important.
One thing I knew about Tai Chi was that it was described as an 'internal' art. One meaning of this is that the actual experience of the practice is what is important, not the external appearance. This differed from the traditional style in which it was often taught, based on looking like the master. As I had no teacher around what I then tried to do was follow a modern approach to learning Tai Chi, one that included inquiry and exploration, one where learning came through direct discovery.
So every morning I would do some initial warm up and stretching and then start to explore some very basic, and seemingly simple, bit of movement like hip or arm circles or torso waves. I would discover many things in just these small movements and find many new questions to ask, to the point that I rarely found time to actually get to the form itself. It turned out that even the very simple form that I had learned in Chiang Mai was to complex for the path I was following.
I approached Tai Chi from the perspective that, far from mysterious, at it's base Tai Chi was just a series of choices about how one might deal with connections between the mind and body, and the body and external world. It had to deal with the architecture of the body, the realities of gravity and weight, and the sensitivity of touch, just as any movement form did. As it had a reputation for being the 'best' martial art, I figured practitioners would make not just any choices but the most sensable choices in a particular situation that will meet their goals. I just had to discover them for myself.
-Tai Chi vs Poi-
As I explored I came to believe that Tai Chi practitioners had to deal with directed momentum just as a poi spinner did. The difference being that the momentum was directed not toward a ball a the end of a string, but instead internally through the body first then directed outward an other body.
From this realization I was able then to explore how in Tai Chi the hips, arms, torso, everything could follow many of the same paths that the poi did. Poi terms such as forward, backward, inward, outward spin gained a whole new meaning when applied to different body parts.
I also discovered that the Tai Chi principle of power through alignment, rather than strength, was very similar to the forces affecting the poi. I knew that there was no push with a string, the primary way that a poi spinner could affect the ball was through the pull of the string. I discovered that, if I moved my body like I move the poi, I would not be putting strength into my movements. This was getting me closer to the embodiment of this Tai Chi principle.
-Tai Chi vs Contact Improv.-
Tai Chi also had many similarities to an other movement form that I was familiar with, passionate about, and wanted to explore more, contact improvisation (CI). They both were focused on exploring the ways that bodies could interact creatively and spontaneously. They both looked to develop sensitivity: internally, through curious exploration of ones own body; and externally, through the touch experience of another body.
The differences between these two paths grew from their different goals and different histories. Tai Chi was developed with the goal of staying independent of external manipulation (i.e. this guy wants to kill me and I don't want to die) while having the ability to guide the bodies of those around you who might be threatening. The goal of CI was to abandon your own center (i.e. lets play), leave behind your independence, and seek a shared movement experience, absent of an environment of threat or the desire to control.
Over the last few years I have gotten as involved as I could in CI and had learned many powerful body lessens from it, more even than I had learned from Tai Chi. In part, this was because CI is a modern dance (it is only a few decades old) and it is taught in a modern, experiential way. It's principles were not hidden by accidents of history, the limitations of ridged conflict prone societies, or the limitations of communications before the information age, as has sometimes happened with Tai Chi principles.
This was also because Tai Chi was at it's heart competitive, a martial art, soft and defensive though it may be. Being competitive it was not as conductive to relaxed learning as this makes it harder to avoid some dualism and stickiness in it's interactions (ie. egos tend to get in the way more often in competition). CI encouraged a release into exploration; Tai Chi a defense from attack.
-Contact Improv Principles-
I wanted to develop the idea of being able to be soft yet strong an other Tai Chi principle. This principle of movement, which is shared by both these movement forms, is a difficult to embody. This is because to experience it you have to get past reacting from fear keeps you from reacting in a natural soft strong way (that or just not being present with your body and the moment).
I had experienced this first hand, through Tai Chi push hands with my teacher in Durango, how my fear, made obvious through either tightening up or holding back/running away, gave him what he needed to start flinging me around like a rag doll. By reacting through fear I was leading him right to my center and, once he had that, he knew what to do from there.
I did not manage to grow beyond this in the context of Tai Chi push hands. It took being in the more supportive environment of CI, where play, with no undercurrent of competition, was the focus, for me to geat past the fear and abandon myself into the shared moment. It was in CI that I came to relish, rather than fear, directed touch. And it was in CI that my senses became most deeply atuned to, and enlivend by, the mobile lines of support, force, and momentum that are an other moving body.
-Movement Practice Conclusion-
Many of my past movement explorations where coming togeter in interesting ways throughout the gathering. Where they were going I did not know yet, but I was definately enjoying this curiosity about and growth into the unknown.
--Music--
didjiflute
tptpt
uoaei
sss
lip tones
hadjira
not ready
right handed
split hand/two hand
shake, strike, stretch, strengthen, smooth, spiral
shaking, circles, waves, stretch, momentem,
what is tai chi? what are it's funtamentals?
Tai Chi
Poi - counter circles sensitivity, poi w/body
belly dance isolations/circles
Circles/Waves/Figure 8s
didgefute
hadjira
don't hate me because I'm enlightenet, for you to can be enlightened for only 59.99 + shipping you to can get the enlightenment gel/hammer/...
growing movement, good mix of men and women, has young people, will it change the world?
Music
Community
Crazy
Island
Monkey Chant
Angel Walk - Beyond the Angel walk
Fire Dance
Ceremony
Drum
Circles/Spirals
Steal
Cost
After full moon dark
carin, douglas, go, mana
work world.
mouth sound types
Christina
The gathering was a bit to easy to get to, this cause the rainbow energy to be less pure and focused than it could be. The outside world was close by, it allowed Thai tourists to just wander in easily and people that we re less commit ed to the rainbow spirit to come and go. This caused the gathering to be a bit to frantic during the holidays, it lost some of its heart at that time.
Practices
What is my main thing to share with the world?
Not expert in anything (but close in many things)
Not sustainable, will have to be productive again eventually.
my continued self isolation...
Sanctuary
Full moon parties
drum
belly dance
fire dancers
Agama, jeremy, CI
Open Mic
Enneagram - 5
Visa run
Suan Mok
no talk
monastary/retreat center
monkeys/cocks/dogs
early rise
dharma talks
talk afterward
tangles
rise with sun rise
chalenge authoriatians
